I took too many things for granted. That’s why bullshit like that keeps blowing away in the last minute.
After 8 years of breathing with programming, I found myself not as good as I thought to be. Being a John Carmack that can write efficient and robust code stunningly fast is not a skill. It’s an art. I am simply NOT THAT GOOD yet. And this really sucks.
Blog is a good thing. I am so used to take everything on my own and don’t want to complain my problem to anyone else, even my friends. Yet, I can keep ranting on my blog. Someone will read it and my stress is relieved to some extent by this fact, : )
Just one thing. Never count on other people to feel your pain, because if one day he or she leaves, you will not know how to face it.
And it’s normally the case that he or she will leave one day.